In The Middle Of The Night

i still busying with my assignment. what a terrible thing. i hope

 no more work to do, no more assignment, no more stress. 

and i can get a happy holiday with my dear.

go to KL.(Pavilion, Sungei Wang, Sunway Lagoon,...) go to the place i ever go before.

actually i really don't know he want me to calm down for what. i so confuse on that.

hope today will be a good day, better day, best day for me.

we will no more argue. he won't say need calm down for a day.

i really hope no more again.

i wish to be a happy girl.

i wish i wont cry behind he again. i feel so stress on this.

why i can't control my tears as well as i can?!

i don't want he say break with me anymore. i hope he won't threat me. then i can be a happy girl.

GOD, please help me get away from this. 

GOD, please today he won't give me one day time to calm down.

GOD, please blessing me this pity girl.

i still with that crazy girl watch the animation.

and she wanna eat the french fries. 

She want me get fat, fatter, and fattest in the world.

SWEAT.

i not wish my blog got people know and see.

Wakakka :D

One Day Rest

RAINY DAY

today, i quarrel with my dear. early in the morning, he call me he say last night he drink beer till vomit. i think vomit is equal to drunk. but he say no. after that, we quarrel quarrel quarrel.........

finally, he say we need calm down for one days, for our future. and we need to walk together, and i just can accept it actually is not willing. but i need to accept if not he will break with me. no one i can tell here. i just can write at here. feel extrication.

we need to be pardon to each other in the future days. don't know my attitude will so emotion. i know this can control, you want me think careful about our problem ant my emotion and my stupid. 

1. i need talk be mature.

2. i need to control my emotion.

3. i need to be a pardon's wife.

4. PLEASE dont easy to say suicide.

if i do all this thingS i can be a wonderful wife... ^_____^

i <3 you dear. muacksss *。*

finally, today i can watch my tudou web drama, i know the god know my sadness. 

let me can see the drama. 

let me wont feel lonely one this days. ^。^

i can watch the "every move you make".

I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT THE DAY NOT YET FALL DOWN.

MY DAYS STILL NEED TO WALK.

MY DEAR ARE WAITING FOR THE ENGAGE.

This Is The First

so nervous to write a blog, even i dont know why i have a feel to write a blog. to write i hope to write out my feel in this time, actually no one will watch on this.

i hope this will help me go through my sadness and happiness time.

i hope everything pass faster and i can go back to my hometown, to meet my dear and family, go back to the place that only for me. XD

today, i didn't go out from house till night. morning, my best friend, M she prepared a delicious western bugger, nugget and french fries. i'm proud to be her friend that she can do everything without any response 

till night, we go out for dinner. after dinner, we go home, i drive car and i want drive to the fast line, the car suddenly become faster and my car already pass the half line. and that bad car are come by the back, IT horn a time, this make me so scare, that my legs are paralysis. 

if that im emergency to turn to that line, why the car wont let me go? i know that car can break one, why IT dont want to break? why IT so worse. nothing to say.

thus, i call to my dear, he just busy to serve his new friends. 

i'm sad. 

just want you to give me more and more caring to me.

i know we are at different place. 

this will make us less and less communication to each other.

say about some happy things.

today, M and me together see the japan animation, Yumeiro Patissiere.

i think this animation not bad, it say about cakes and pastries made by a junior girl and she do the best on her cake. the demon cake always practice her to do more and more this about the cake.